It always comes down to Arkansas.

I am honestly and truly sick of feeling so alone and depressed when I know that i’m not alone. I have a beautiful baby boy and a boyfriend. I just don’t feel like I belong anywheres and it scares me. I want to feel like I belong somewheres and feel loved. I just have this feeling in my stomach constantly and it makes me sad. Last night ny boyfriends father, brother and his brothers wife were over for some drinks and they were talking about what they’d do if there was a nucleur attack and they all had cool stories but me, I would just want to die. It’d b easier than surviving. I’m not saying I want to kill myself at all because I don’t. I have a baby that I want to see grow up and be proud of but sometimes it’s hard to see colorful things when your world is black and white.